Monday 28 October 2013

Where Who and Why

Where is the world? Is it on the internet? Is it out there on the streets? Is it the people you see everyday? Is it your firends? Your relatives? Where are you? Meaning, where am I? Am I in my body? Where do I look for that? The other? The forfillment? The purpose? Do I find You in a book? Do I find You at all? Do I wander here and there in a kind of forgetfulness, never quite finding but never quite looking? But then when will I look if not now? And when will I find if not Now? What are You, that fills me up? And to know you are there yet not feel you how is that? No wonder we find ourselves looking in all the wrong places? Are you in the food I eat? The cigarettes I smoke? The people who are around me? Do I see You in them? Do they know they are You in them to me, and I You to them? Otherwise why? It is not philosophical, I feel this how can our feelings be philosophical? Did someone teach my emotions philosophy at university? Is it the feeling that is giving the lecture? Well one just knows You are there simply because I am here and if I am here then you are here. You have to be and they all say so anyway. I can take their word for it, I can be that bold. But it hurts me if I don't ask for myself, how could it be any other way? Was I planning to leave myself out of the equation when it was my own yearning that brought me to ask the question. I know I am not that yearning alone, but in a way I am this sentence. The journey goes on, I don't think it ever really ends, though I must have started somewhere? Don't remember when that was, and I keep finding things and going places so I am clearly moving. I wouldn't like to not move. Yet I keep finding out I have it all wrong. But that is the realisation that I have it. So yeah that sounds good. Amen.