pray

There is nowhere else to go anyway,
I am a sinner but what am I to do?
I can only pray and practice forgiveness,
There is nowhere else to go,
The world is steeped in illusion,
And You promise eternal happiness and freedom,
But what am I to do?
I can only pray and practice forgiveness.
God! Please I cry Chaitanya!

The parlor of festivities to the Land of Faith

It can be a bit of a battle on the progressive spiritual path, to have the strength to stand on your own two feet, and sacrifice the approval of what may appear to be your friends. Of course everyone wants to be able to join in, and feel like they are liked by the people around them, but how deep can this liking, or love, actually go?

Under the spell of the modes of material nature, the love that one can receive from others will always be limited. It is very difficult to find good support, and then once you receive that self-less advice it can be hard to take, especially if it asks you to endanger your attachment to those whose affection you are still asking for. But who else can we look towards for this love? This love that shows real compassion on us and inspires true love and compassion for those around us? Yes it is not easy to step outside the box and look away from those we usually look to for confirmation, what is this need to have our reality confirmed by others?

Inside of this unself-realised soul there is an inadequacy, a lack of faith that leads one to look outside oneself for confirmation. These people around me that I look to, who are asking me to confirm their realities, while I ask them to confirm my reality, leads to a dreadful kind of group thinking. Why do we resort to group thinking, which is looking outside ourselves, if not through a lack of looking within? My own lack of internal strength, that group thinking, results from a lack of faith in my own abilty to hold Truth.

So in a wonderful irony to become the worthy vessel of Truth, one must become selfish, I will take care of my needs, I will speak my Truth. For this is the only way to stand on our own, God-Given, two feet, and to have the strength to stay on them through the advice of our support and through our own need to look to others. If one really has faith, and that Faith is truly Understanding, one must stand for it, even if it hurts, even if it causes you to cry out God for His Strength. Through thick and thin I will look within, God give me strength, please bring me in. Through the parlor of festivities to the land of faith, Only You and Your Friends, let it be.